Viaje De Mi Vida

Living in five weeks with the unsolved issues real put me down. The issues still don’t want to move away from my life. I don’t know why. Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? What I want in my life actually? What? What? What? What I expect? WHAT? The unresolved questions that seem playing in my head that reluctantly wants to move away.

I’ve never been happy since this problem hit me. Since that day, I always show the bright side of me, keeping away all the problems within myself. So that all people around me wouldn’t notice it, happily mingling with me. I just want to be happy, but why this issue hit me so much that I think I want to surrender, I’m so tired of coping. So much effort has been put to channel these problems to the correct path. But again I cannot see the brighter side of the problems to fade away.

Every weekend I try to make full of it, just to make myself happy again but how much I’ve  tried, it seem the same thing, same situation, same state of unhappiness. Why it’s so hard? What else I should do, I’m logging for answer. I just want to be happy, to be the old me who always has the greatest smile to everybody, who always motivate people, who never give up and never lost hope on any circumstances.

It’s not easy for me to trust people.Since I’ve been betrayed by my old good friends,I never trust friends anymore. But once I gain the feeling of trusting friends back, I’ve been betrayed again. From now on I will never trust anaybody except me!I’ll stick to this pharse so long I can hold it. Goodbye my M friend,I’m no longer your place of happniness and loneliness. You has lost something that you would regret when you realise it. People never appreciate what is in front of them, when it lost,they remorse of not taking the moment to appreciate it.

Ya Allah, I redha all the tests that you’ve put in me and I know You wouldn’t give me this test if I can’t cope it.

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